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June 2013

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Time for thinking ( Client has no spellcheck, sorry)

With little internet work comingin, and having a lot more art to focus on you end up thinking. Thinking on about the what if's ansd other musings. I know I am lucky. So far my husband and I managed to afford our half of a wedding and find a way to stay current on bills durring this tough economic time. People out there have a much more difficult time at it. We've even added a mouth to feed in the form of a kitten, at a time when many people had to give up thier pets because they could not feed them. For this, I count my blessings.

This also tears at my heart at the same time. I would like to help and pay it forward.

Today I was catching up on a friends livejournal - since I have been too preoccupied with my fathers passing. I am now able to resume my life more efficeintly than before.

Okay, back on track... I was reading my friends journal, and the hard time she is having in life right now. She moved to houston for a relationship - and I miss her terribly. The good news is she is more in love than she could have imagined. It's about time she got the love she deserved. ITS ABOUT TIME. She is a great person who deserved far more than she was getting beforehand.

Anyway, she was having a hard go at it with her landlord - er SLUMLORD in all honesty... and demanding MORE RENT. urgh. BAD JU JU!

SO, she was contemplating leaving it all, but decided to stick it out in houston. I reminded her that she had another option; my place. Granted I would still have to run it by Dustin and Mom, the concensus would be an okay based on the criteria. Then I began daydreaming about the prospect. I have not let myself daydream about something trivial in a long time...

I imagined being a good friend and driving down to Houston and loading all of her worldly possessions into Dustin and I's car, driving back talking about how she would not need to pay rent - just keep me company and startup her dreams... the both of us sharing a table at conventions selling our wares. Me selling my art and random crafting and sewing endeavors while she sold her sperm necklaces. ( She actually would make a single sperm - large scale of course- out of polymer clay and turn them to necklaces and earrings.) Then I would help her get back into school just in time for me to go back to school as well. All I would ask of her would be to keep me company while Dustin was at work - and keep my artistic mind on track.

If she chose to work, the store she currently works at could transpher her to the location five minutes away from my home... how nice it would be... We'd even find a way to get her a futon in the 'Room of Requirement' a.k.a my art/ office/craft/sewing/library room.

But the truth of the matter was, in order to have all of this she would have to first be in the unhappy position of her relationship not working out. There is no way I would want her relationship to end. She is so happy, and I only want the best for her, so no matter how great it would be for us to find a way to make my scenario work- I would never want it at that cost. I am proud to call her a friend and help her out if or when she needs it, the best I can.